"The God I wanted was going to intervene. He was going to turn time back. The God I wanted was -- I was going to pray for good health and he was going to give it to me," she said. "Why in this complicated world, with so much grief and pain around us throughout the world, I could still believe that, I don't know. But I did. And then I realized that the God that I have was going to promise me salvation if I lived in the right way and he was going to promise me understanding. That's what I'm sort of asking for . . . let me understand why I was tested." Some of us wonder some of the time, where are You? How can there be so much suffering throughout the world? Some of us get real tired of hearing, 'It's God's will'. She lost her son when he was only 16. She certainly had the right to question that. You can bet, I sure would.
